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Thursday, October 13, 2011

The Letter

I stood under a full moon, two nights ago, with my husband. The gap between us seemed unbridgable. He came to me, and hugged me, and I breathed him in with the warm night air of an autumn midnight. I felt everything coming full circle.

Sometimes I have no idea what to do.
Maybe then it's time to wait, to be patient.
Sometimes I know exactly what to do, and it feels impossible.
Maybe then it's time to act, with courage.

I've written the letter.
I've shared it with C.
I've printed the letter.
All that's left is to share it with my husband.
He's home.
We're alone.
He's only one room away from me, but once again, the space between feels like a canyon into which I could fall forever.

Sometimes I do exactly what I'm meant to do...

8 comments:

Shen said...

testing

Shen said...

Okay - I have not been able to comment on my blog for a few days AND I've been having this problem on other blogs. If you are not getting comments, this could be why. Blogger says that there is a problem on blogs in which the comments are embedded under the post. To fix it, you need to switch to full page or pop-up style commenting - at least for a while. They're "working on it".

Shen said...

The comment I wanted to leave, here:

Sometimes I do what I'm meant to do, and it works out perfectly.

The letter was well received.
More, later.

Evan said...

Great to hear.

Desiree said...

I was in the middle of leaving you a comment yesterday when our Internet died on me. I have been off line for over 24 hours now, but thankfully, it's back. I am so glad to hear you have written a letter to your husband, Shen. I hope you find the courage to give it to him.

Desiree said...

Oh, I see you've already given it and reported that it was well received. Excellent news, Shen! That is what I would have expected, since you seem to have a wonderful, caring husband who loves you a great deal.

Ruth said...

Glad to hear you gave him your letter.


I have seen similar problems on other webpages besides yours.

Shen said...

Thanks
Yes - I've also been following two other blogs with similar issues. It's something that happens, I guess... it makes me feel less alone and weird.

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