All is in order.

Let go of your vanity.

You do not have the power you think you have.

If the creator of the universe does not want the world destroyed, 

do you have the power to destroy it? 

Does anyone?

If the world is meant to exist as it is, it will.

If it is not, it will evolve into what it is meant to become.

Others may choose to live in anger, greed and fear. 

They create their own hell, but you don’t have to live in it.

Trust.

Choose love and know all is in order.

All is always in order.

I of God

We are ONE being... seeing the world in infinite ways.

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To Believe

 I close my eyes.

You gently push my hair from my face.

Patiently.

Lovingly.

Every single time.

I want to believe. When I close my eyes—

when I see your unwavering tenderness—

I believe.

But in the light of everyday unconsciousness, I’m afraid to look too close. I put it off. I elude the quiet moments that would allow connection. I avoid the stillness behind closed eyes and part of me is glad to find an excuse to look anywhere else.

Why?

The reason is encased within this sadness—so close lately. So deep. So constant. Relentlessly pulling me into its undercurrent. Speaking to my deepest insecurities.

My work is done.

I have no purpose now.

I’ve finished what I came here for.

What else could be as important?

And yet it seems there is truth in your every nuance—

in every thought that passes from you through me, like electric current charged with unlimited potential. 

I want to believe you are truly giving these gifts to me—seemingly unlimited spiritual sustenance, so needed in this world. 

I want to believe you are real and when I close my eyes, I know!

An hour later my inner critic starts again.

I'm a fool to believe.

Even if I'm right—

even if this is as real as it sometimes seems—

even if the pieces are all coming together and I write them all down—

even if these words and thoughts hold the keys to our very existence—

I don’t know how to pass it on and no one wants to hear it.

And why me?
What have I done to deserve this gift?

I'm nothing special. .

Maybe I don't have to be special. 

A strange thought, that, but somehow it seems almost as if it is my lack of distinction—

my certainty of my un-specialness—

that gives me the ears to hear. 

I want to believe!

Even as I'm looking the other way, I so deeply want to believe.

Maybe it’s so hard to believe because I need it so much.

Maybe it's because if I was going to create a purpose for the rest of my life, I couldn’t imagine anything better.

Maybe it's because  I’ve longed forever for exactly what you offer—

hoped and tried and put my trust in others, only to be knocked to my knees.

To my knees.

Maybe it’s so hard to believe because without you I feel as if I am nothing.

But with you I AM everything.

And so, I close my eyes and you gently push the hair from my face.

Patiently.

Lovingly.

And I listen to your wisdom once again.

On Truth

You want to know what is real. What is true.
You long to know and yet, the reality is that you already know.
You have always known.

Truth is the only thing that’s real and all reality is truth.
It is obvious, open, clean, crisp, untethered.
You don’t have to look far to find it. It is within you.
When you see it, you know.
It doesn’t change.
It just is. 

Sometimes you judge truth. You think you can change truth by refusing to see it. You throw a blanket over it and hide it from yourself and you pretend things are not as they are. This leads to pain.

Pull that blanket away. Don’t be afraid. Your pain is an illusion. Uncover the truth that is within you.
Hold it up to the light and know.

You ask how.
It's so simple.
Take a breath.
Close your eyes.
Look deep inside yourself.
Find the place within you where you know who you really are
The “I AM” within
and there you will find truth.